I’ve met my match.
September 26, 2008 – 2:34 amI realize I am being a bit unfair to you all. I haven’t posted in what feels like ages, and when I do post, it’s simply to say:
I’ve met my match. But not in business, in relationships.
Not that you know her (though given the small world, it’s possible), but for the sake of sharing (and for referenceability), Stacy is her name. I’ll try to avoid being too sappy. But we’ll just say that she’s the first person I’ve ever been with who actually sucks my vocabulary dry when it comes to coming up with ways to express how incredible she is, and how happy I am.
Stacy is remarkable in that she’s passionate about my work, and actively supports me with it… which is important to me because I am tremendously passionate about my work. I bring this up because as she’s been supportive of my passion, she’s also helped me to realize important components that pertain to my job.
One such realization is that the hardest thing for me to learn since I’ve been with National Speed hasn’t been how to manage my team or others, but how I manage myself. Communication with my team has never been an issue. Nor has getting done what needs to be done. They are all fantastic, passionate and motivated. What’s been more difficult, I am realizing, is including for myself the approprite time for much more of the forward-thinking mechanics of the job. These are mechanics I often am doing off work, or stay late to complete, but really may render best results if done within the work environment (maybe not always, but certainly mostly).
I think part of the issue stems from the business culture that is there, both environmentally (in terms of office orientation) and socially. But part of it, too, probably stems from a need to further delegate. I feel I delegate quite a bit already, but I am also afraid of becoming the team leader that people look to and say “Does he really do anything? He just delegates it all to us.” A point I neve want to be at.
Perhaps I’ll have to think on it further as I am not sure if this is simply a beam I will have to get used to walking as a team leader, or if I will eventually be able to find that happy medium.
(I do have a post or two waiting in the rafters. Just trying to iron them out)
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